Monday, 1 August 2022

Rewiring, continued

Retirement is not a thing that you can illustrate in a short narrative. What strikes you at first is the novelty, the new-found freedom. At a later stage you might look back nostalgically: to have lost touch with colleagues, to find a gap in your life where team spirit used to flourish. And so on.

At the latter end, where I’d put myself now—soon to become an octogenarian—you have a whole life to look back on. There comes a stage where you have neither hopes nor ambitions for the future. Let my life continue exactly as it is, accepting that time will erode my body and mind like an old penny worn smooth. (We don’t see such things any more but I’ve found an image that matches childhood memory.) We may be blessed enough to recognize in ourselves a choice: to fade joyfully, or grieve angrily at our losses. To some of us, such a choice may not be offered. What kind of cruel world is this?

In any event, all creatures are bound for a common destination, in which our present uniqueness is dissolved. Death Don’t Have No Mercy: thus spake the Grateful Dead. And then the really big question is “Why is there anything at all?” If retirement is a seemingly endless opportunity for self-indulgence, this is where I like to go, a kind of backpacking adventure, loaded with guidebooks to strange locations; with intent to send regular despatches for publication here and discussion with readers.

At which point I offer these words:

The question how come anything as opposed to nothing is one that stretches human beings to their limits: they reach out but never attain the answer. Some of the answers are self-evidently unsatisfactory. For example, if God is the answer to the question “How come everything?” then he is not included in that everything. God cannot be an object competing for your attention among other objects in the universe. God and the universe do not add up to two. Nor does God make the universe out of anything; for whatever God’s creation may be it is not a process of making. Nor does God interfere in the universe, since He would have to be an alternative to, or alongside, what He was interfering with. Being the cause of everything, however, there is nothing that He is outside of. Hence there is no feature of the universe which indicates that it is God-made. What God accounts for is that the universe is there instead of nothing. Of course this is a point at which a philosopher might ask: “How come God in the first place?” But by definition He must contain within himself the reason for His own existence: it is not possible for Him to be nothing. Since He is not part of the universe, though, God must therefore be in everything that happens and everything that exists in the universe.

I got the above from the later pages of Darwin’s Angel: an angelic riposte to “The God Delusion”, by John Cornwell. Amazon tells me I bought it in October 2010, paying full paperback price. What made me do that? Anyhow there it is on my shelves and it’s only now that I’ve got round to properly reading it. I was puzzled at first that the author takes so much trouble to defend millennnia of religious culture from the depredations of Richard Dawkins, who I thought hardly deserves such critical attention. But Cornwell takes extraordinary pains to tackle him point by point. He concludes that Dawkins himself has become a fundamentalist. Just as creationists are wilfully blind to the multiplicity of fossils and geological layers, he’s wilfully blind to most of Christianity, selecting its fundamentalist fringe as representing the whole.

The book’s journey proves fruitful for an intrepid reader who sticks with it. For me, the above excerpt provides a worthwhile destination. Cornwell is passsionately Catholic to the point of being its fierce critic. He’s not a maverick outlier like Eric Gill, but an academic strong enough to wrestle the precious idea of God from the grasp of unworthy preachers. In particular, I like the way he reconciles the yearnings of the heart with clear-sighted reason.

Next post: perhaps on the Journals of Kierkegaard. Perhaps not.

18 thoughts on “Rewiring, continued”

  1. John Cornwell’s idea of God seems to get near to the Tao, the creative source of everything and an immanent touchstone within our lives. I don’t quite follow his argument about God not interfering in the universe. But even if I could, I might reject it because human reason feels too feeble to define what God can or cannot do ( “Canst thou draw out leviathan with an hook?” ).

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  2. Trying out the drop cap feature in the new post editor, eh?

    I have mixed feelings about the drop cap. On the one hand, it gives a little touch of the prestige of published work, but on the other hand, it detracts from the off the cuff spontaneity of a blog post.

    It also evokes a sense of jamais vu if you look at it and think about it for too long. It looks nice but seems so alienated from the other letters. How does the eye instinctively read when the “A” or the “I” are meant to be read as words unto themselves or meant to be read as joined to the letters on the top line as in “awake” or “iteration”? A simple enough matter to parse, sure, but you think you’d be thrown for at least a fraction of a second. And yet…

    Am I delving too deeply into this?

    Probably.

  3. In this my domain, you cannot delve too deeply. Which is not to say that shallow replies are not equally welcome.

    Speaking of probably delving too deeply, we’re currently reading Exciting Times, by Naoise Dolan. Here she is in an interview with the Independent:

    I can get thrown even by something as simple as: “When did you realise you wanted to be a writer?” It’s hardly the Tour de France of author questions, but when I’m put on the spot, I start mapping out potential meanings.

    By ‘a writer’, do they mean anyone who scribbles anything? Is ‘a writer’ someone who’s had stories published? Do they have a book deal? Do they make a living from writing? Or is ‘a writer’ someone whose view of themselves revolves around writing – someone who expects romantic partners to read their work, someone who feels when they’re not writing that part of them is missing? I’ve never wanted to be ‘a writer’ in that sense, so perhaps I should start by looking at the premise…

    I could just take one of these ‘writer’ definitions and run with it. My interlocutor would probably be happy enough with whichever meaning I chose. But I can’t proceed without clarifying. I ask what they mean, give long-winded replies, then realise too late that I should have just said: “Well, I wrote stories in primary school and I always had my head in a book.”

    It doesn’t correspond with the literal wording of what I’ve been asked, but it’s perfect for a casual exchange. There’s no need to treat every question like a riddle about why a raven is like a writing desk, or an interrogation of whether ravens and writing desks are doleful allegories of late-capitalist literary output.

    We’re greatly enjoying her novel, though Goodreads readers tend to disparage her sparse plot, padded out by our heroine’s overanalysis of every gesture & fragment of dialog, including her own.

    ’Nuff said?

    Probably

    1. I can definitely sympathize with that feeling of being “put on the spot” by a question. Even a question as simple as “What have you been up to, lately?” usually elicits little more from me than a glum, reflective, “Nuthin’ much.” And later I think, actually I’ve been up to PLENTY of interesting things lately. It’s just that those things aren’t usually kept neatly packaged in readymade PowerPoint presentations in my head available to be presented anywhere anytime at the slightest prompting.

    2. I also like her passing mention of having “romantic partners” read her work, and how she hadn’t considered that, and how maybe she should get on that if she wants to be a “real writer.” Funny stuff.

      I’m not always big on having people I know read my writing. Maybe because I feel like it will make me self-conscious in the future, like someone reading over my shoulder, or maybe because I feel like they’ll think I’m a giant fraud.

      In my real life, I’m not usually all that articulate. I get nervous and stumble over my words and I usually only have about a dozen of them at my disposal and I give my self a headache with a constant repetition of the same ones.

      But when I can go to the quiet space in my head where I can calm down and think and choose the words I want to use and plan out what I want to say, I feel like that’s a different person there, and I’m not always comfortable introducing that other person to people I know.

      Sometimes I wonder if other people who write feel that way.

      1. PS: And I’m sure I’m not being entirely fair when describing myself as “inarticulate.” I talk plenty — too much some people would say.

        It’s just that it’s never optimal. It’s just that’s it’s never as clear and concise and on point and polished as I would want it to be. It’s always me being too loud, flailing around, spitting out haphazard mouthfuls of words.

      2. Speaking of flailing around, sorry for hijacking and derailing your comment thread here. I’m sure I can find a find a better home for my neuroses than in the middle of your blog.

        The post is yours; the topic was “rewirement” (Still seems like an awkward rebranding to me. Not sure what that’s supposed to mean.)

        1. Au contraire, the comment thread is yours to derail. You think you can find a better home for your neuroses than in the middle of my blog? [emoticon signifying “see if I care”]—then go to it. Be happy there. You’ll come humbly back sooner or later.

          I already derailed the comment thread with some waggish remarks to Michael Peverett’s serious comment above, wish I hadn’t deleted them.

          Have now increased the depth of nested comments to 6—gives us more elbow room.

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